Tears

It's weird how right now I just want to cry. I want to curl up in bed and cry. I should be happy. I just got done with the biggest stress that I had going at the moment. Maybe that is why I want to cry. I have been too busy to stop and think about how stressful it all was. Now I am just done and now the tears can flow. What a week. A week that is only half way over but has exhausted me. Sometimes I wonder if I am going to keep up with everything. I don't know. I miss my Lori. She always is there for me it doesn't matter how much time or space is between us she is just there. I can't believe she knew to call me today. She saved me today. I think I'll run a warm bath, put my head in the water so my ears can only hear the sound of the water and let go of all my thoughts. I wish my thoughts would stop. Hopefully a warm bath, some sleeping pills and good nights rest will allow me to forget the stress of today.

Let's Laugh

Let's laugh! I find myself needing to laugh, to giggle uncontrollably today! To look at life and laugh in it's face! I got myself in a pickle this week. Too many things to do and only one me. Okay, all you that know me this is a lie! I'm in a pickle every week, and you know what I make it through, somehow. My sleep is interrupted by constant reminders of what I have for the week, what I need for the week (what they need, actually) So, I need to laugh!! I need to smile. Pinterest has the auto spell check changes that people have sent to friends and family. Hilarious! Not working today though. My favorite go to make me laugh is the story my neighbor Kris told me. He was draining fluids out of his car when all of a sudden he was covered in red. He just laid there under the car wondering what do I do now? All of a sudden a cop, fire trucks, ambulances are at his house a cop kicks his foot, and Kris said; hey! The cop jumped back and said a neighbor thought you were dead and called us. They thought the red was blood. This usually makes me chuckle, NOT today! I need to laugh. First one to make me laugh I will be so grateful!

Off to school

Today was Tyler's first day of Kindergarten. He handled it like a pro. He even ate breakfast there with help from his big sister. Wow! It feels like I just brought him home from the hospital. Really, It feels like I just brought Kyle-Jay home and he is 16. I cried like a baby when I dropped him off for his first day of Kindergarten. Sadly to say I cried for a good week. My life is changing so fast. My kids growing. I love my kids so much. I love seeing them grow and learn. It is so wonderful to hear their stories. It just goes by to fast. I hope they know how proud of them, how strong, smart and beautiful they are.